In my district teachers have been back on contract for nearly three weeks. Kids will start on Tuesday. Other than laptop distribution last week, everything has been online and will continue to be for at least the next couple of months.
Kids haven’t even started and this school year has been such a roller coaster. That may have a lot to do with my own personal emotional state, but I don’t think I’m alone in feeling this way. I’ll figure out how something works or have a great meeting or conference and feel like I’m on top of the world. Then I’ll contemplate my to do list and want to curl up and cry.
This is my 23rd year as an elementary school classroom teacher. While I get nervous at the start of any school year, I don’t usually feel like this. Right now I’m feeling as though I have no idea what next week will look like. I’m not fully confident in what to prioritize when it comes to helping my students become independent members of our classroom community. I’m not at a total loss, but I’m at maybe 25% of where I’ve been in recent years at this point.
The one thing those previous 22 years did give me is confidence we’ll get through this. I know that in a few weeks we’ll be in a routine and we’ll on our way to being a strong learning community. I just don’t see the path to get there as well as I would like.