I just happened to glance at tweets of mine people had liked. I realized I tweet when things are good. This isn’t intentional; it’s just that the good moments are energizing and I want to share them. There are plenty of not-so-great moments. Reflecting on this made me realize that being public about the not-so-great moments is pretty important too.
So, here’s a list of things I feel some shame to share:
- too often we start projects and never finish them because my follow through is weak
- I engage in power struggles with students at times
- sometimes I recycle papers my students completed rather than look at them and return them to the students
- I yell at children for behavior that is normal for 3rd graders because I am not patient or thoughtful in that moment
- I call kids by the wrong names, sometimes for months on end because I can’t seem to keep them straight even though I know so much about them in other ways
- this year I’m struggling more than ever (and so far, failing pretty miserably) at living what I believe as an educator rather than getting sucked into the standardization and testing fiascoes
- I won’t leave some books for a sub to read aloud because I want to be the one to share them with my students (even though this would likely make the sub’s day easier)
I’m sure there are so many more that will occur to me throughout this week with my students. I don’t expect to be a perfect teacher. I don’t even strive for that. I do want to be doing a better and better job for my students every day. Recognizing and admitting the things I am not doing well is one step in that direction.